I awoke at 3:00 am and instantly dismissed it to be the sounds of the heating ducts popping or my upstairs neighbor had just headed to bed, but when I couldn't fall asleep and realized I was wide awake with an 8 hour drive ahead of me, I started a prayer to help lull me back to dreamland.. "Father, God, you are my king, my ruler, my soul...",
"Then write my book". Came the INSTANT reply. So, unsticking myself from between my two youngest kids and parking on the couch, I decided to Walk my Talk.
But not after I had spent about 10 minutes on Facebook before praying for sleep. And I was distracted.
I have some beautiful and successful friends, let me tell you. With some beautiful and successful husbands. I found myself thinking I couldn't go back to Boise as a broke, single, divorced minister! Nobody will take me seriously. Those in my church will ask where did I get the authority to just 'become' a minister. My friends would think I was just off on another of my crazy journeys, to be short-lived and to burn out before any traction could be made. My children will stay away from me thinking I'd finally made the cross-over into full-on schizophrenia. My church won't allow me to lead anywhere except the Welcome Center, where I can't cause too much trouble with all of my ideas on how we could love better. They would never allow me to form a small group, knowing I was a minister-they would think I was trying to steal their flock. All lies from Satan to keep me from what my assignment is. And it is to write this book and love on the people who are around me NOW. And when I am done, God will fulfill the promise He made to me when he told me to write this book in that "I will give you your husband when you finish my book".
The reason for this rant to all of you-don't let Satan and his earth-bound demons possess you and keep you from fulfilling your purpose on this planet. Accept your beautiful heritage and RUN to your destiny. Tell Satan to beat it. God tells us in Matthew 16:23 "Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the things of God, but the things of men." And here, He was talking to his friend, Peter. His God-fearing, apostolic traveling companion. You see? Not a slithering snake or a red skinned, hoofed, horned, trident carrying devil. A human. A friend. Someone who loved him. Someone unrecognizable as an enemy of his destiny to anyone but Jesus himself. YOU are the only one who can see your destiny thief. They will mean well, it's up to you to follow your path, regardless of those around you. Put on your blinders, remind yourself that all things work together for good for those who love him, who are called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. Romans 8:28+29
You are the firstborn. Don't overthink it! Yes, someone found you, and you may not be a first generation christian, but you are a first generation YOU and you are called to lead at least one person through your story and your journey. Don't let anything push you off course.
I love you, my darlings. Have an awesome weekend.